The day I first felt the fluttering of you inside my womb
I knew I was not alone
It was scary and lovely and full of promise
… did I mention scary?
And then all too soon, you were here, a part of me, a part of my heart
… Living, breathing outside my body
I got to know you and what you liked and didn’t … you loved water, you loved the dog, and you loved music; you were playful and happy
….but you didn’t like cacophony or discord
You grew into your own person and uniqueness
You had your own opinions
I helped shape you; you and I were a team, where you let me be a part
I loved you more than I could even imagine a person could love another
… and I was proud
I saw you almost every day, listened to you practicing your music, learned your habits and your ways, watched you grow, and I was proud.
Then, all too soon, it came time for you to leave.
I never thought it would get here, and then when it was, I was not ready
… it happened in an instant.
And now, you live apart from me. A part of me is living there with you, where ever you are. Proud and happy for you. Processing what has happened to me.
I was whole before you came, and when you arrived. Now that you are gone, I am whole still, but in pieces …
Fly my little bird, my grown man. Be strong and happy and loving to others. But remember, you will always be mine. You will always have a home where ever I am.
I just called my mom after reading this. Thank you! 🙂